Story of life and a diary

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Ishq-aashiqui-mohabbat yeh to woh lafze jo lazfon mein aa jatein hai, Bas jo lafzon se gehre hai woh dil mein hi reh jatein hai. Tujhe pata nahi tere liye kitna betab hoon! Batana chahta hoon lakin zamane ke darse majboor hoon. Bolne ke liye to hazar lafze hai, kehna hai aur nahi  bhi kehna hai, bas baat yehan tak hi ruk jati hai. Ab tera guzar jana tadpata nahi, malum ho chuka hai tu mera nahi, kisi dusre ki amanat hai, jiska haqdaar mein nahi. Beetein lamhe mein kya nahi paya? Jo manga tha sab kuch mila, bas waqt ke saath thodi daga baji ho gayi, aur waqt ne mujhse dosti todli. 

Khudse koshish karli zamane se mohabbat dhundne ka, Mat pucho kya mila mujhe, Mat pucho kya mila mujhe, Jo mera tha hi nahi usse pyaar kar baitha

Woh har azmaishe karli, Sone na diya teri yaadone, Kabhi haath se anshu poch liya to kabhi bistar ki chadar se, Sone na diya teri yaadone.

Itna khush Naseeb nahi ki tu mera intezaar kare, Haan betab hoon tere liye lakin dil mera tujhe inkaar kare. Teri yaad aaye aisa pal na ho, Raat din mein badal jaye, Shaam yun hi beet jaye, Mujhe pata bhi na ho. Tujhe pane ki chahaton mein khud kurban kya, Aur gair banke tune mujhe hi chhod diya. Ab tujhe chahna gunah hai, Kisi gair ke liye rona mana hai. Kya kehne uss shakse jo meri hi bahoon mein aanke roshan hua, Jab mujhe roshni ki zarurat hui to mujhe andhera keh ke muh modh liya.

Woh to woh parinda tha, jise kabhi lautke aana hi nahi tha, khule aasman mein koi mil jo gaya tha...!!!

Mere dil mein meri hi majudgi ki kami, Har dhadkanon mein tu kahin na kahi, Ab dhadkanon se koi sikayat nahi, Meri ankhon mein mera hi chehra dikta nahi, Jidhar bhi dekhu tu kahin na kahi, Ab in ankhon se koi sikayat nahi Meri sikayaton mein sikayat ki kami, Har sikayaton mein tu kahin na kahi, Ab sikayaton se koi sikayat nahi,

Falling in love is like finding a home In the heart of a person that you've never known It's the waiting for the ring of the phone when you're alone Or making them a playlist of all your favorite songs Remember how it felt? When their touch made you melt When their presence made you a better version of yourself When your bed was like an island in the middle of the sea And their eyes were the only sunset you could see When their smile was enough to inspire a forever In this lifetime of learning how to love each other better It is beyond words It is knowing how she takes her tea It is knowing when to challenge her and when to let her be It is knowing when to hold her and when to set her free It is chemistry and honesty, empathy, integrity and humility It is calling when I'm gonna be late Or giving her the last bite of cake from my plate It is going on vacation and walking along the beach It is the sound that she makes when she laughs in her sleep It is real, especially w...

Dear past, I know it has been a year, we haven't been contacted or don't want to, but I want you to know, I neither follow you nor try to be in touch with you. Things that you did is now belittle to me, but there are certain things which took very long time to get over but I did get over all of those things. I know your list of BF is very long and my name is there also but now I don't regret what just happened. Things that never could be mine or couldn't be ours is clearer to me. I have become more focus person and I see myself as a mentally and emotionally strong person. Now I laugh when I think of your false promises and vague love, it was a really good experience for me to understand myself and know what I deserve. I had given you ample chances but you showed your cheater character every time and I wasn't surprised by that because I just wanted to know how much you can pull down yourself. Things that you asked me to give, I did give you every time as I just want...

Yun to thik hu, meri zindagi subha bhi hoti hai aur shaam bhi, bas kisi ke intezaar mein kab yeh pal guzar jatein hai pata bhi nahi chalta, Yun to thik hu, muskura bhi leta hoon aur gaane bhi gun guna leta hoon, bas kab kaise gaano mein kho jata hoon pata bhi nahi chalta, Yun to thik hu, baatein bhi kar leta hoon aur sher aur shayri bhi, bas kab konsa sher aur shayri rula deta hai pata bhi nahi chalta, Yun to thik hu, nasha bhi nahi karta sarab bhi nahi pita, bas Aashiqui mein kab itna tut chuka hoon pata bhi nahi chalta.

Wafadari to dil ne dimag se nahi ki thi, Toh woh insaan kaise karta?

Yeh kahani kuch yun suru hui thi, raat k das bachkar ek minute hue the, typing karne k bad delete aur phir typing ka aalam tha, aur woh send button ko click kare ye na kare aisa kuch mahol tha, himmat to nahi ho rahi thi bas dil mein jor tha, woh pal akhir kar aa hi gaya tha jaha pe 'send' se 'sent' ho gaya tha, tab raat k das bachkar char minute ho chuka tha, ab intezar ki ghadhi chalana suru kiya hi tha, pal do pal mein hi reply aaya tha, lamhe dar lamhe baat badne lagi, kuch dil k raaz humne bataye kuch ussne, aise hi chalata raha kareb 8 saal, October mahine ke 14th tarik ko aayi kuch aisi baatein, jo dil sunna nahi chahta tha par mazbur tha, usne kahan 'humlog baat nahi karenge', 'yun whatsAapp mein message nahi karenge' bas mera sara lamha wohi tham sa gaya, dil mazbur tha, dard se cheek raha tha, par wada kiya tha, 'har lamhe mein aap jo kahogi wohi hoga', maan liya ab tumse baat nahi hogi, whatsapp pe status check bhi ...

Alfazon ka kiya kehna? Yeh to woh alfaz hai jo bolte bolte reh jatein hai, Kis ghumnami mein jo kho jatein hai, Isqadar khona chahta nahi tha inn alfazon ko, Kiya kare wada jo kiya tha.

It hurts to let go. Sometimes it seems the harder you try to hold on to something or someone the more it wants to get away. You feel like some kind of criminal for having felt, for having wanted. For having wanted to be wanted. It confuses you, because you think that your feelings were wrong and it makes you feel so small because it’s so hard to keep it inside when you let it out and it doesn’t come back. You are left all alone that you can’t explain.

Boroi elomelo hoe gechi ami, sokal theke suru kore raater khabar projonto, kichui khawa hoina thik moto,  raater ghum se to kobe geche du chokh theke, ki jeno osthir lage sara ta khon, mone hoi ekta neshar modhe achi sorbo khon, somoyer saathe miliye cholte kokhon j emon elo jibone, ta nijeo bujhte parini, vabte parini, jedin theke bujhte parlam, anuvab korte suru korlam, tar majhei kokhon j take moner singhasone bosalam, hoito ta niejo jani na, kokhono bujhini aage, kokhono khujini age, ek jon manush are manush er jonno koto ta hote pare, koto ta aachonoo hote pare ekta jibon, onno karo jibonaborte, a ek odvut chawa ek odvut onuvuti ek odvut upolobdhi, hoi to ekei bole prem ekei bole valobasha,